Leaving these people and this gym has been one of the most emotional things I have ever done, and this post is taking quite a bit of courage. It’s been a really really dark summer. I understand that it could seem as tho it should be nothing but a closed chapter and just another gym and that I am super fortunate for the life I live but this place was so so so much more to me than anyone realizes.
I poured my heart into so many relationships there, watched people’s LIVES blossom as they discovered their own resilience again. They would reach out and thank me for my part in their journey and my positivity. And the ME that helped them was only fueled by them and their commitment and growth. It repeated itself time and time again with person after person, it was a beautiful thing. I had family. And I found purpose in life because of those moments!
Every aspect of my life grew dependent on this system: my health, my sanity, my relationships, my athletic hobbies, my finances and career, and turns out my happiness too. I’m now faced with a loss that brings me tears too often because of my failures in so many pillars of my life.
I wish I could say something extremely positive and inspiring and make all your days like so many of you say I do, but today I’m sharing a reality of how much a gym can mean to someone. How important it is to BUILD the life you want. And how much a gym can mean to me. If you’re willing to lay it all out there it could be amazing, or it could be horrific. Thank you to those of you that have remained in touch, this post was LONG overdue.